I don't know why i'm feeling this way. Everything seems too depreciated you know...i'm not the dreamer person that knows that the true love is coming for her. I'm not that kind of girl. In fact, i'm too scared. I'm scared that i'm not good enough, that maybe i'll end up alone. I don't want get my heart break. No one wants, of course. But mine is already fucked up. Can't be fixed. But i somehow hope that one day i'll be proved wrong. One day, the right guy will shows up and making me believe in love again. Bad things happen all the times, and to me, always. I just ask one thing. One little and overrated thing...be loved.

I can’t understand people that cheat on someone. Like, if you don’t want to be in a relationship, you end up the thing and then you are free. You do something like that and just then you realize than you screwed things up, but guess what, it’s too late. You could have everything, but you still prefer do something that could saves you from your tedious and boring life. I don’t get it, i really don’t. I always imagined love like a beautiful thing. A lover is someone you can trust your soul, someone that loves you and cares about you. But then, things like this pops up and i let myself think that maybe no one can ever be faithful. That, perhaps, society is too much fucked up to appreciate such a nobel thing. And this makes me really sad because i watch disney movies and things are so magical and perfect, the prince is really charming, and the princess is not a liar whore. 

Momentos à parte

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(…)

Não somos senão fantasmas de fantasmas,

E a paisagem hoje ajuda muito pouco.

Tudo é geograficamente exterior.

A chuva cai por uma lei natural

E a humanidade ama porque ouviu falar de amor.

”

—	Álvaro de Campos [09.07.1930]